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Spellcheck: Spelling Bee
Spellcheck: Spelling Bee

Episode 路 10 months ago

The Start of Something New (so long... for now!)

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It's been a wild ride, Spellers. I love you all. Here's to all the laughs and cheers. Here's to Spellcheck past, present, and (eventually) future! 馃挏

Hello everyone, welcome to not spell check once again. Weird that the last two recordings on here are not episodes of the spelling be but I also don't think these are the last two episodes. I do believe it's the end of spelled check for right now, but I do see myself coming back to this one day just because it has been amazing. I mean it's been so wonderful and I've met amazing people and reconnected with people in my life through this whole thing and I love that I'll have these recordings to listen to when I'm feeling down or blue or missing someone in particular. I don't want to think of...

...this as an end. It's definitely an end for now, just because spell check was something I really needed at the time. If you listen to my last update, you know I was in a pretty bad place and you know still am in a lot of ways, as we all are. It's just the world we're living in. But also I'm in a much better place since that update, especially I am sad the big season two premiere that I planned, that I advertised, didn't happen. I'm not one to really think the universe is like sending secret messages. I definitely think there's things I don't know and understand that maybe you know guiding me a certain way, but I'm not one to think it's like clear cut, oh, this means this or this means that. But it's pretty telling to me that the moment I finally wrangle...

...folks who I've been trying to get on the show for forever and lots of cancelations and reschedulings and it turns into this thing that is much bigger than I ever could have imagined and much more ambitious than I ever could have imagined. And I put all this time and money into marketing it and I was ready to give away money during this live stream and it was really fun and concept and I think it will be fun and I think I will do it one day. But the day I was going to do it I got like the most violent food poisoning I've ever experienced in my life, and I I get I don't get sick a lot, but I've been sick before. I've never felt the way I did that Saturday and I can confidently say I thought that...

...day I was going to die. Feels dramatic, especially in hindsight, but I remember laying in bed just going like back and forth from the bathroom, back and forth to bed, just like begging for death, thinking I will never work again, I'm just going to live at home with my family and they're going to have to feed me through a tube for the rest of my life. And that was really how I felt that day. And suddenly I woke up the next day having not done the spelling be this whole thing that I had so many plans for. First, covid made it from being an imperson thing to being a virtual thing, with some people in person together, but me separate from them in the recording studio, and that was like the first stumble from the big event to what it was becoming. And then the...

...food poisoning really just made me go, okay, do I really need and want this in my life right now? Since my last update, I've gone through a lot of therapy, I've gotten on medications and I've really made a lot of changes in my life that I'm really happy with. I said really so many times, but it's true. I think it really takes reaching what feels like rock bottom to take a hard look at your life. And it wasn't just from my own free will that I've gotten out of it and I'm still not out of it again. We're still living in this world together. You all know what's going on all around us. But I just had this realization. The projects and the things in my life that I need, in want right now are not spell check, as fun as it was and as...

I'm as much as I needed it at that moment. I've realized the creative projects that I have time and energy for right now and I'm motivated and excited to do right now are very different. They're writing, they're acting. I'm actually in the process of forming a theater group with some friends right now and we're putting on a play that I wrote. This play like fell out of me in a week and we're already in the process of auditioning and making plans to perform it this summer in Denver. I never said I was in Denver, but I'm in Denver. So if anyone else out there in the podcast versus in this city, hit me up and you're invited to display. Called yesterday today. What else? Yeah, so that that is what I want to be doing right now and that's what I need to be doing right now,...

...and I feel really comfortable sort of like officially putting this to bed. You know, I want to thank everyone who has listened and, like everyone who is continued listening. And, like I said, there's definitely not nearly as many listeners as when I was uploading and making these regularly, but they're still people just popping in every day to listen and that's wild to me. So, whether it's just my relatives out there or whether it's really the other podcasters, I just want to say thanks to everyone who was going to collaborate on the season two premiere. I'm really sorry. I'm sorry you're finding out this way, but you know, I like you all. I listened to your shows and I thought you guys had something that I wanted to bring to the show and I love meeting New People. So I hope whenever I do...

...start doing this again, whether it's in six months or two years or whatever, I hope you're still around and I'll hit you up. I'm not going to delete the instagram or anything, and I'm going to leave all the episodes up because I'm really proud and happy with them them, especially that last episode with Timmy versus. I'm A. I just I revisit that whenever I need a laugh and like if that's the way we had to go out, that's quite a season finale, quite a series. I don't say series finale, but quite a finale to go out on. So, in summary, this one all longer than I thought. I love you. Thank you. Stick around, keep following me on Instagram so whenever I do post again, your the first to know the return of spell check. I do want to return with that Big Bang. I do think there is something about the live element...

...that would be really fun. But given covid how it is right now, it's not going to be what I want it to be and given what I need right now, it's not what I want to be doing. I'm writer actor at heart and this podcast is entertainment and I I'm going to miss just like being myself, or being a version of myself in front of a microphone. I really like podcasting. Maybe I'll it's May. Yeah, I'll reach out this some you who invite guests on your show and and try to get you to bring me on, but I won't be plugging my podcast anymore. I'll probably be plugging something else or, you know, encourage people to listen to old episodes. I'm I'm kind of going off topic now, but basically that's it. This isn't goodbye, this is see you later and keep an eye out. I might share something on this channel about the theater company once...

...we do have it up and running. We're still building the website and everything, but it's something I'm really excited about and maybe it'll just be a pipe dream that lasts four months and then I come back to this. Who knows? But that's the world we're living in. We don't know anything. None of us could be here tomorrow, so I want to do what I want to be doing. So I'll still be in the podcast first. Maybe I'll come on to you know, Scroofy, you guys personal shout out for coming on my show. I still need to take you up on coming on yours, and now that I'm not doing spell check anymore, I'm probably more open to do that. And, Oh and Ellie, your movie podcast, th Oh shoot podcast. Yeah, I super want to come on and talk about a musical with you, so hope you're listening. Let's let's set that up, especially if the musical is semer no starring Peter Dinglage, because that movie...

...was so good. Let's see, all right, I'll see you later. Handsome host out.

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